Let me start off by saying, and please try to follow along because I don’t want you to get confused, I am a Christian. I know what you must be thinking; Damian, a Christian? No. Those of you who know me know that I am a Christian, but those of you who don’t are probably confused about my beliefs, solely because of how I talk about Christians and the Church in general.
I grew up in the Church. There wasn’t a day that I wasn’t at church, except for maybe on a Saturday. I went to a private school, which was conveniently located at my church, and I went to church on Sunday mornings; and to tell you the truth, I loved it. I couldn’t get enough church in me. I even went to a different church with a friend on Wednesday and Sunday nights. I was content with that life. I was happy with that life. I even wanted to be a pastor and have my own church one day. You see, growing up, I was taught to look at the Bible one way. But it wasn’t my way. My faith was not my own, but merely that of my parents. It wasn’t until these resent years that I developed my own faith and my own relationship with God. It wasn’t until then that I realized that the Christian community was full of assholes.
In our society Christians aren’t seen as a good people. Ask anyone (who isn’t a Christian) what they think about when they hear the word Christian and you’ll probably get responses like: Christians are hypocrites, Christians are judgmental and Christians are homophobic. Now answer me this, why the hell would I want to be associated with a group of people like that? What’s that? You wouldn’t? Yeah I din’t think so. Yet so many people are content with this.
Plain and simple, I hate the Church and honestly I am embarrassed to call myself a Christian. It should never be that way, EVER. One should be proud to call himself a follower of Christ, but to associate oneself with a group that has such a disgusting name in society, what’s the point? I’m going to keep pursuing my relationship with God and I’ll fellowship with other Christians, but I’m done with church. I’m not going to look for one because it’s useless. I’ve been to so many churches where all they care about is how my many members they have and how many people are tithing. There is no fellowship or wholeheartedness, just self righteous pricks who have this misconception that they’re perfect and that everyone has to follow their cultish rules or they’ll burn in hell.
I am by no means perfect either. I am man and thus, I fail. I’m not trying to instill in you the fact that I’m perfect and all others are inferior to me. If you take that away from here you’ve taken the wrong message. Please know that I am just as in the wrong as the Christians I talk about. The difference between them and me is, I can openly admit it. I don’t pretend to be perfect.
This is something that’s been eating at me for some time now and I just thought I’d share it with you wonderful people. Please, let me know in the comments what your thoughts are and share this with family and friends because I would love to hear thoughts from many different people on this. Thanks everyone.